@kat718-Welcome to Mayo Clinic. Good morning. I'm sorry that I am coming into this whole discussion so late. I agree with Ginger. After I was diagnosed with cancer not only did I look at my life differently but I looked much differently at people too. I couldn't stand trivia or chit chats nor conversations that were dull or emotionally draining. I had a twin sister who was dying of end-stage heart disease, lupus, and a million other things. But she was very very selfish and only concerned issues about herself. Looking back on it I am grateful now, looking back, because I didn't have to think about me.
How long have you had MM and End-Stage renal failure? What treatments have you, or are you having?
Insomnia is such an inconvenience, don't you think? Not only does it exacerbate our physical symptoms but also our mental acuity.
When I can't sleep I can't think straight. When I can't think straight I become depressed. Facing a diagnosis that might indicate a grim future, I would think would curtail any ability to sleep. However, if you haven't slept in a very long time that will run you down and you need your energy. I would suggest seeking help with a sleep clinic. Can you find out if there are any near you?