May I please write a most very special problem I am living with. When I realized my husband was on many drugs not prescribed by a doctor, and then my friends and neighbors came to tell me, he is peeping tom in their windows, (two neighbors), then another neighbor friend told me she saw him jerking off in his car while watching women walking by I started to look into his belongings. A special trunk of his that was always locked I found open. Naturally I looked into the trunk. After seeing much pornography I then found the child pornography. I knew there was something wrong but my husband would not speak of this at all. Never. And with many, many other reason I decoded to leave my husband. With three children a six month old baby girl, a two year old boy who was born with a double cleft lip and palate and a five year old girl. With absolutely no family to help me on both sides. How we lived and struggled to survive is a book in itself. All these years I have kept this from my children. I never received a dime from their father for their support just to keep this information from them..I did not want them to know all these ugly things of their father. Now here is the kicker. My oldest says their lives would have been so much better if their father would have been in their lives; So therefore she and her brother and sister will not talk to me, see me or anything. Help me here people: If I tell them about their father I do not think they will believe me. They will think I am making this all up just to be with them. I am very tempted to tell them. Should I write them a letter of this? Might be better than being hung up on and not getting the message across or just continue on "All alone am I". (Very embarrased in Ocala).

I'm kind of confused how this system works. Posted for support earlier. Still struggling. I dont see posts related to my posts. Could the moderateer help me understand what to do.