@twinkie Thank you for reaching out to us here at Mayo Connect. It takes a lot of courage to put down on a screen the things you have told us. Would you be comfortable sharing what therapies you have done for your diagnoses of mental issues? I also work everyday with my own depression and anxiety. You know, so many of us struggle this time of year, and when we have underlying concerns, they seem to stack up, don't they? Family members are often scared about what to do/how to help, so they lash out or ignore. Your children are missing out by not being at your side. I don't know where you live, but is there any other family around, or friends you can turn to? Any faith community that you can involve yourself in, or join for the holiday? Please reconsider carefully before acting impulsively. You can call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline https://988lifeline.org. I hope you will continue to reach out here to us. We care.
Ginger

Hi, @twinkie - another Connect member I'd really like you to meet is @jimhd, who has also spoken about major depression and suicide attempts. Hoping he can help provide support at this time when you are feeling sad and as though you've lost your children because they don't understand your mental illness.