@kiro0001, Good morning. You have great helpers here in @johnbishop and @helennicola. There is not much for me to add except that I have had those tests several times in my life. They are getting easier to handle these days. Here's my question. Will your husband be going with you and will he be in the room with you? My life partner went with me to the neurologist's appointment. That was so perfect. Why? I didn't have to tell him. The technicians and neurologist included him in the entire process. What that does is make the tests and their results a shared experience. We now attend every medical appointment or treatment together. He calls us "health buddies".

If you are a student of mindfulness, then my next suggestion will be an easy one for you. Stay in the present. The past is over and the future has not happened. Worrying, predicting outcomes and waiting for answers is in the future. See if you can limit the time you spend with the future since it is unknown at this time. The what-if game......is not an emotionally healthy place to stay for any length of time.

And finally, sharing with your husband will have a chance at the best outcome when we answer the following mindfulness questions.....is what you want to share with your husband true? Is it nice? Is it necessary?

If I am being honest with myself, I will acknowledge that I went through most of my health issues alone because I thought my ex-husband wouldn't want me anymore. There are a lot of cultural concepts that make women feel unworthy unless they are totally healthy and doing everything they are expected to do. May you be safe and protected today. Check-in after the October 17th tests. All three of us, John, Helen and I will be here for you.