First of all, it’s ok to not be ok. Don’t try to fake it. Tell people you are not feeling well today. I mean dont be negative but don’t pretend because then it builds up inside and that has to be released eventually. Also know that you will get better. Don’t trap yourself in the sick role... be a survivor. It’s a tricky thing to be both you know. Also people may never truly understand so know that this is your battle to fight and unless someone has gone through this, they won’t fully understand. I weened antidepressants after 20 years, lexapro. My last pill was February 5th of this year. I feel better than when I was taking it. Also have weened Xanax and currently weening trazadone. What helped me get through the really hard times was God, music, exercise, diet, being real with people around me, crying for as long as I needed and not holding back, seeking out homeopathic md and found root cause. Good luck! I’m routing for you!!!