@stuckonu Welcome to Mayo Connect. We are quite a diverse group of people here, and surely there will be a variety of responses to your post. Of course, some of the replies may be written in invisible ink, so they don't actually appear.
You pose a few interesting thoughts, some that may have people questioning either you and your thought process, or themselves saying, "yeah, I totally relate!" Living alone, and choosing to do so for the most part, allows a more complete responsibility of one's life, not responding to the possible controls that a partner may try to place on you. You also have control of your environment in the respects of sound/vision/where and how you live/meals you eat, etc. There is less chance of disappointing yourself or someone else if you are by yourself, and less chance of feeling used or using others. Your intuitiveness as an artist is not thwarted so much by everyday activities, and you may eat/sleep as you see fit, rather than conforming to a mutual schedule. It seems to me there are definite positives to being a hermit so to speak.
At the same time, living alone can rob you of the richness of a shared life, letting you see the world only from where you sit and not being able to share another person's view and viewpoint. Having that repetoire can enrich your own view.
This is my thought pattern based on your post, randomly put down.