@jimhd Thanks. Yep, I had a sleep study and I am on a CPAP machine. That shouldn't be the problem since I was just in about six months ago for a follow up. That was before the switches in medication, the separation, and the insomnia started. I have an appointment in a few hours to talk to my GP about the insomnia. I am hoping he will give me something to help with it and not just send me off to another sleep study. I'm pretty much exhausted right now.

My wife doesn't want to talk to me at this point. She has said no to counseling several times and is convinced that she is right about everything that has gone wrong over the last ten years. The problem is that she was the cause of most of the problems and I just stayed with her and took the abuse she dished out. My eldest has told me a few time that I just needed to stand up to her mother since she was walking all over me. I got to a point where I just couldn't fight any more and that is when my depression got worse and worse.

Right now, I am not sleeping well, the depression isn't as bad as it has been but it isn't good, the anxiety is manageable most of the time, and I am not on any medication for depression or anxiety besides the CBD oil which may or may not be doing anything. I'm seeing a therapist today and I hope that will help. I saw her a few months ago and she was really good. I'm going to see what she can do to help me.

I don't recall what the psychiatrist's diagnose was based on. My memory is shot at this point. I just know that I was in pretty bad shape and she started going through a ton of drugs until she settled on Olanzapine and Parnate. I did ECT's which I thoroughly regret at this point. I think they may have fried my brain since I think that is when the memory problems started.