@contentandwell Thanks. The earliest they can get my daughter in is next Tuesday. I was hoping this week but it is what it is I guess. I ended up calling the clinic and they said they left a message for my wife. She had sent me a few emails today asking for help with a problem but didn't mention the appointment even when I mentioned it. Trying not to get upset about that. We will be talking tonight when I head over to mow the lawn.
I talked with the people at the Ketamine clinic and I have an appointment for tomorrow. One of the owners called me and talked to me about the problems I am having and basically said I was in a crisis. He recommended a therapist for me to see but when I called the guy said he would be going on vacation for the next two weeks. I ended up calling the therapist I was seeing before my psychiatrist wanted me to see the woman he worked with. I am hoping she will be able to get me in to talk. I walked passed the office where the new therapist is supposed to be in town and it doesn't look like they have moved in yet. So probably no CBT at this point.
I'm actually doing a little better right now. The anxiety is down and the depression isn't too bad at the moment. It's strange how it has been fluctuating for the last week or so. I think the ketamine is helping again but I am just having too much going on at the moment for it to work completely.
I understand what you mean about being on the verge of tears at work. I was talking with a coworker/friend of mine about what is going on and almost broke down. She has been really supportive and came in to check on me.