trishj46 Thank you for your response so quickly. Your right. I just sometimes think I really don't need them and should get by. I just fear the dependence and have to believe I wouldn't be prescribed if I didn't need the, This thought process is one embedded in the addiction counselor I was for 25 plus years. Here I am with my medical marijuana card and ingesting opiates. The same drugs that I supported not using. I am newly diagnosed with breast cancer. Two weeks ago I was referred for a biopsy because of a suspicious find in both breasts. Biopsy came back positive on both breasts and I was seen by the surgeon today. Yes to cancer in breasts. In spite of that we are very optimistic as I have a very tiny piece of cancer in both breasts and as the doctor said if one had to have breast cancer this is the one. I will have a lumpectomy on Jan. 8 2020. I liked the doctor and staff and will have this doctor do the surgery. I don't look forward to surgery of course, but positive on the outcome. I find that percocets often dull emotional pain and that frightens me as I will also have real pain after the surgery. I think I am just tired and confused and in pain right now. Thank you and everyone who read my posts tonight.