Hello @ihtak46

I am so sorry that you have had such a difficult day. I'm sure you must be exhausted with the grief you feel. Please realize that grief is a very difficult process and it does take time.

Have you talked with a physician to see if there might be some help for you? What about personal counseling and/or a person-to-person grief support group. Online venues, like Connect, can be very helpful, however, right now it sounds like you need more immediate feedback. You might find this type of feedback by entering into a personal support group where you can talk to others face to face. There are medications that a doctor can prescribe that can be helpful in dealing with some of the physical realities of grief reactions. I would encourage you to call your doctor's office for some help.