Your father just died days ago. How would you expect to feel? Let yourself feel this way. It is ok, and normal. He just died! My dad died when I was 21 years old, and I am now 68. No one was more important to me. I still feel his loss, and have kept memories of him alive in my mind, because I would never want to loose them. You are grieving. Let yourself grieve. Let yourself sleep. It is OK. It is normal. How could there be another way? I was numb after my father died. Like nothing happened. That frightened me. I did not understand how it could be. About two or maybe even three years later, the grief began. I suffered. I had trouble loving the love of my life, and I let him go. Thankfully, with time, I went on with my life, got married, had a son, have a daughter in law, and grandson. But the memory and pain is always there. We love. Our loved ones die. Such is the power of our lives. We endure because we are alive, and here, on this earth. Grieve. Let yourself. It is life. It is love. God bless and keep you, Lori Renee