Hi @tricks, I want to add my welcome as well. Have you heard of OK2Talk https://ok2talk.org It is a website by NAMI for teens and young adults. Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to send you somewhere else, but I thought you might want to know about it. I'm glad you're here, especially to hear stories like @johnhans, who has lived with mental health all his life. He, too, was 19 once and is here to tell you about at 67.
Who is the dog in your profile picture? She looks so alert, curious and ready to play. I say "she", but I of course don't know her gender. Is she your dog?