Plus, I'm all alone. I want it that way, but it makes dealing with serious issues harder I think. I have a couple friends here, but they have issues and lives of their own. My family lives quite a ways away and they're all spread out, but they call to check in. I have joined a church and there are nice folks there, but they aren't like family or close friends. I didn't realize before I got afib and became a little more fragile how beneficial strong and healthy relationships could be. People who have a good family and friend support network are very lucky.