@catmom Exactly right. Just knowing where you are and having a path to aim for will hopefully help you. You have much to live for and enjoy, and goodness knows your grandchildren need you in their lives right now. Find a success to count every day, no matter how small. You woke up, you have plans, you have little ones to brighten your day and cherish. That is more blessings than some other people have. Some people journal a "grateful" list to write something down daily. They say it helps them change their focus from the doom they feel to accomplishments and hope. It hasn't worked for me in writing, but I do complete it mentally whenever I realize I am in a funk. Blessings to you and your future.