@catmom777
Blaming yourself for your problems is counter-productive.
How ever and why you have the issues you do is in the past.
It is time to look forward to the future!
It is what it is and the best thing to do is to try to live each day to its fullest.
Funny, I guess I need to take my own advice, too! lol

Be Happy!
Ronnie (GRANDMAr)