You are right. I am catastrophizing. Living alone and having no one to talk to about this makes my mind go crazy--like "what if I fall and break my hip AND hit my head and am bleeding but can't get to the phone," etc. Maybe it's time for a med-alert necklace.
I've never been a gym member. My sister has been bugging me to do that for years. I have always been concerned about the cost, but this mess is hella expensive--more expensive than a gym membership would have been. I've also been told to take yoga and learn how to meditate. I know I can do yoga now without a doc's permission, and I have been, plus I've been walking a lot. I did yard work last night and pulled a muscle in my back, but it's getting better already. It feels good to get out and get stuff done. I think as long as I'm careful I don't have to fall and become disabled, right? One of my aunts had osteoporosis and fell several times but was able to walk and get around until the last few months of her life. She had a husband to help her, but she did not have to be put into a facility. I'm sure her osteoporosis was worse than mine also.
As for the afib, time will tell. I want it to go away and get off the blood thinners, so that is my goal.
Thanks though for the reality check. I appreciate your thoughts.