I did want to add to my long post from yesterday. Regarding support and friends and feeling not alone...the only way I've found that works is to be the person who GIVES support. When I was severely depressed and didn't want to live, I worked on a suicide crisis hot line. I've always volunteered or found employment working as a counselor/emotional support person for extreme mental issues, because I've always had extreme mental issues of my own, and still do. I'm looking into volunteering in suicide prevention and maybe starting a peer support group. So to receive the emotional support that I've always needed, I have found that when I give my energy to others who need the same thing, I get it right back. It's a circle.