@buckimom....Thank you. You are a very kind lady.

So. Now. Should I share my "dumb as a box of rocks" moments? Believe me, I could share so much, would probably overwhelm the internet. Seriously, I have embarrassed myself, shamed myself and done much more wrong than right. But....correcting wrongs, honestly assessing behaviour, making changes.... all allows us opportunities to grow, thank God. Got plenty to account for, but the beauty of living is our ability to learn and change. So my plan is to plug away, hopefully learn from my mistakes, try not to repeat them, while I help my dad get from this life to the next. And then.... try to suffer what I must gracefully so as to not be any more of a burden to my family than I must. And continue finding the humor in this messed, but wonderful life.The fam loves me, for sure, but as I age, I expect it will be my turn to be a burden. My kids will be good and kind, but this is a fact of life.

I pray I can care for my own needs for many more years. Just want to preserve a minimum of dignity before I get planted. May we all be allowed this grace! Especially those who have invested their lives caring for others. Like many here on this forum. God bless.