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~ Depressed and scared, not making it financially ~
Mental Health | Last Active: Mar 19, 2022 | Replies (428)Comment receiving replies
@amberpep Good to hear from you, Abby.
I spent much of my day assembling a rock puzzle. I started making a path from the main deck stairs several years ago, but in typical fashion for me, I've been procrastinating finishing the job. My wife would be the first to say that I often don't complete things. I suppose it's a sign of my depression.
I've gathered rocks from several places, focusing on ones that have a flat surface. Mostly, they've been free. Going to Lowe's and buying a pallet of rock pavers would have made the job a lot easier, but you know why that's not an option. I have only 6 feet to go, and then I can clear away the meds. Some of the rocks are 2" thick, while lots of them require some digging up to a foot deep. I always wear gloves for outside work, but they still are hurting, and my feet are at 8 or 9.
I didn't get to sit down and look through my inbox until a half hour ago, and I still need to take a shower before contaminating the sheets with the dirt that acquired. And since it's almost 11, I have to turn off my phone. Maybe tomorrow won't be such a long, hard day.
Jim
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I absolutely love rock walkways .... they are beautiful. I know they take a lot of time and work ..... my SIL put one in from his parking space to the house (they live on the Blue Ridge Mtns.) and it is beautiful. I admire your efforts to do this. It sure wouldn't be something I'd ever attempt, but then ..... I can't even put together the simplest of puzzles! Go for it .... finish it and send us a picture if you can.
abby (the harp player)
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@jimhd, I'm laughing because like you, I am a better starter than finisher for some projects. Amazing how I can just "not see" paperwork waiting action, dust bunnies growing sometimes by leaps and bounds! I don't blame mine on depression however. Told my daughter several years ago that I seemed to be becoming flakier because I was stopping before finishing some projects. Out of the mouth of this beauty came: "Mom, you've Always been a bit flaky." Did she Really have to share that truth??? I'm the only mom she has!!! smiles
Understand your soreness and hurting from the heavy duty digging, lifting and transporting of those thick and sometimes buried rocks. Same happened for me when i carted bucket loads of free river rocks to fill in a small flowerbed section in front next to neighbor. The really fantastic news is that the completed effort will be worth all your time and effort! No bermuda grass encroaching because I dug out the bed deeply and lined it with heavy duty plastic...no idea how deep the rock fill turned out to be but it took daily treks for weeks one summer to retrieve, wash and "build" the bed. Sharp shears prevent encroachement of grass/weeds and hilariously one lone iris sprouted in one tiny corner of the bed!!
I emptied a 40 gallon Rubbermaid container on wheels of maybe 3yrs? worth of moldering leaves. Managed to tip it over and rake out the fabulous leaf mold sitting on the ground but there was residual soggyness (?) lower down which resulted in a very muddy splotched gal. That was ok because I still had to fine spray mist some waiting-to-emerge seedlings and so misted self too which got some mud and made the effort cooler.
You'll be amazed and delighted...as probably will you wife, grins...at your masterful path completion!!! Your fans of both rocks and puzzles, we'll be eagerly waiting and hoping for a photo of your latest masterpiece! Just a thought to consider: one day hard; next day easy??? Sometimes that works.