Oh how I'd love to move back …. that would be just delightful. When I was there I worked with a dentist, who has since retired and moved to DE. I do not have any idea where they are or their phone number, but if he were still in MD I'm sure he could give me a good recommendation. But, since I don't have that, and at 75, it's like there's a big circle on my back that says "OLD" ….. If I had a job up there, I'd be gone in a flash. Down here, I have absolutely no friends, except my neighbor across the hall (we're in low cost housing), it's unsafe, and I never go out at night. I have not been able to settle in a church, which is important to me. I see a Psychiatrist every 2-3 months for medications, and my therapist once a month, which involves driving from here (Staunton, VA) to Frederick, MD ….. about 3-4 hours. I'm told there's no therapists in this area ….. wow, what a place. I'm not good without friends …. I have one dear girlfriend that I've had for 30 years from my church in MD, and I do talk to her frequently. She's "safe" if you know what I mean. I listen to her hurts and sadnesses also. Since VA is still "confined to our houses" my appt. tomorrow with my Psychiatrist will be on the telephone. I am having trouble with 2 of the meds. I've been using since the beginning, but until I looked all of them up this morning on Mayo, it registered with me. I am very unsteady on my feet, clumsy, dizzy, very unsteady when walking. In fact I have fallen several times, which have upset my girls, but the other night I really took a flying leap. I slipped on a paper, caught my foot in a table on which some things precious to me flew and broke, and hit the floor on my right side - mostly my right cheek and head and hip. I know this sounds ridiculous, but I just laid there and cried. When I got up I laid down and put the ice on my cheek and fell asleep, then got up and went to bed. Yesterday I was feeling just out of it, so I took it easy. Today I'm fine. I hope VA opens up soon ….. if not I'll be able to braid my hair down to my waist!
abby

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