Gosh, thank you everyone .... that really helps. A big thank you to all who have taken the time to write!
I'm still here, in Staunton, VA. It's nothing like Frederick, MD and I just plum don't like it. I rarely go anywhere but church and the grocery store. Someone else up above said "isolate." That's exactly what I do too. Everyone is talking about hating having to stay inside, but I really enjoy being left alone. I go out 2x a day to walk my dog. This is just so different from where I came from .... I still can't even find my way around without a GPS. My relationship with both my daughters is good, and I know they'd be there for anything I needed. We 3 meet for coffee at least once a week. My son drives down from D.C. usually about once a month, stays with his Dad, and always comes to see me for a bit. There have been several groups my X has told me about, but they're all younger than I am .... it's hard to tell as I am much like my Dad .... he stayed young looking until he came down with Alzheimers. All 3 of my kids are in their 40's and one in his 30's and everyone thinks they're about 25 ..... family trait I guess.
I still daydream about Frederick, but know I'll never be back there to live. I should have never left, but whats done is done. I spend a lot of time reading and watching FOX news .... probably shouldn't do that right now as it's all pretty sad news.
The church I went to in Frederick opened up the same denomination down here as I was up there. At first I was excited about it, but it started with 16 people and it's still at 16. It's nothing like the Frederick one and unless they make some changes, they won't get anymore folks to visit. So, when we all can get out of our "isolation booths" I'm going to start going to a different one, although I know I'll get phone call after phone call about "we missed you, where have you been?" It's dry, somber, and depressing. At the other one, people come up to you and talk and talk and tell you what's going on and invite you to small groups and other events they have. Maybe that will help me make some like-minded friends.
I guess I've just resigned myself that this is where I'll live til the end. Thanks so much for writing and again listening to my chatter.
abby