Hi marjou .... Fall and Winter are always difficult for me .... this sounds pretty morbid but I call Fall-death, and Winter is the tomb. I know how morbid that is but it's how I've felt for years. My x-husband only lives 25 min. from me and now has a girlfriend. That is really painful, even though we're divorced. I didn't ask for alimony because I had a large inheritance at the time, but, got caught up in a ponzi scheme and now I really have a tight budget. If it weren't for my son helping me out, I wouldn't make it. I hate the thought of living like this the rest of my life, but it is what it is. I'm sick of people saying "volunteer" ..... I just don't have the energy to do anything, some days even get out of bed. If it weren't for my dog I probably wouldn't. I don't have any friends down here except a lady at church, but she's very private and "stiff" if you know what I mean. My therapist I went to for 14 years is 3-1/2 hrs. away and busy, busy, busy, so I doubt he has much time for old clients. I wrote for an appt. and he didn't have any opening til Feb. I know the holidays are a busy time for them. I see my Psychiatrist every 4 months for about 10-15 min. which doesn't give much time to talk. Oh how I wish I had never moved down to this awful place. abby