@amberpep You are not worthless. You created a family, and have had quite a variety of experiences that have meant something to you. I think that many people, when they divorce, think that there might be a chance of reuniting if they do this or that thing. I was like that, too! When I saw my ex-husband doing the things he always told me he would do but didn't when we were together, but did them with his new girlfriend, it made me upset. I knew in my heart that I really was better without him but it took work! It sounds like he has moved on, and you will find your way to move on, also. Have you been in contact with your therapist or support group, to get their take on how to work through this?
Ginger