I got an e-mail tonight from my X (he's an N, or was anyhow). It was quite pleasant and during the note he told me he was dating someone. Somehow, even with everything before were divorced, I felt like I'd just flushed 43 years down the toilet. I have this heavy heart tonight ..... I guess stupidly I thought that somehow, we could sit down and talk about everything that happened pre-divorce. But, since he's dating someone, it's not to be. I see each of my girls once a week and church on Sun. and otherwise here I am. I've looked for a job, but at 74, well .... age IS a factor no matter what they say. Others tell me to volunteer. This will sound greedy I know, but my finances are so tight that if I'd do anything, I would want to get paid for it.
I'm seriously thinking (again) of going back to Frederick, but I must have a job first before I find a 1 bedroom apt.
abby