@smilie There is substantial anger mixed with your depressed state, not a place to dwell in if you can help it. The decisions now that you make need to be tempered by reflection on how the future could play out for you and for your family. Perhaps your hope for some reconciliation or resolution to what has turned out to pass with respect to the estrangement you feel from your sister and from the ire that you have over the past.Those are high aims, and maybe you can instead just let things go for a time and see how this is impacting you and those close to you now. Not all things turn out the way we hope, but negative feelings tend to direct us toward ends that we want to avoid but sometimes foster. The more that you stew over this the greater becomes your own distress, and that is hard to think of as being a starting point toward something different than what you fear. You may have to just let it go as it will for now and wait.