Smile, that sounds like a good idea lilac, lavender curtains in your bedroom light or dark which ever you prefer. I find that color soothing especially for a bedroom. I understand about ownership. Plus about your landlady and the color! May I suggest, only because I do this, thinking of projects you may like to do. Keeping your mind busy with the things you enjoy. When I have a lot of pain I go on the computer, research, Mayo Connect and more if I can physically. Your already starting to the road of new beginnings from what I read. Now I'm smiling.