He is tired of hurting and being sick all the time. He has back and neck problems and a pinched nerve in his back and the neurologist and back dr said he wasn't a good candidate for back surgery this was back in 2011 and now they won't because of his lungs. I think it also has to do with losing our daughter, back in 08 he really hasn't been the same. He is scared to eat sometimes because he throws it up. He has told me the only reason he is living is for his 4 children and 7 grandchildren and not for me.