@Parus- I can certainly understand that. I keep my son apprised but he doesn't really know how I ache inside with PTSD. He knows that I get depressed and he manages my blog but reading or hearing something isn't the same thing. I also had to learn how to be a mother to an adult son. We are much better off now and do still feel left out at times but he doesn't know. We email daily but short stuff or a picture, some small thing that just shows our love.