@kdo0827 , I can certainly understand why you’re so depressed. Waiting for answers you may or may not want is so hard. And then your brain goes in all directions of the “what if’s....” You say you spoke to your daughters about their not calling you after your procedure. Did they have good reasons? Did you feel better just saying something? Think anything might change? It’s so upsetting when a child seems not to care, but maybe they’re as scared as you.
I hope things will get better for you, I really do. Take care of yourself.