Hello @iwishiwasanon - Welcome. I think that we all have reasons to feel different ways, otherwise we wouldn't feel things. For some people, even those who have had all the advantages that life has to offer, feel horrible things. We often times don't understand a lot about our moods. Have you been tested for Bipolar disease? You have a month to go on your insurance so pick your doctors' brains for all they are worth! Perhaps you could search for places that have group rates for young insurers?