Gratitude Discussion Group

@parus- Good morning. It's been a while. It's very good to see you here! Many things contribute to fatigue, as you well know. But if you are fatigued by being fatigued then fatigue has become a vicious cycle for you. For me when this happens it's because I haven't moved a lot. It means that I have done nothing about exercising. It means that I haven't done anything about pain or getting help for it. It means that I have worried to much, am stressed, or ill. I know what you have written about your continued pain. I assume that this is the culprit. I wish that I had an answer for you! Has there been any new news from your pain manager?
My mug shot is always floating around too much! I just grin and bear it. But I too do not think that I take great pictures! I am my worst critic, for everything. Aren't we all?
Other than fatigue and pain how have you been? How is that gorgeous grandson of yours? Is he in school this year?

@gingerw I'm glad the check-up went well. I hope the biopsy goes well also. My husband has had a number of skin cancers on his face too, the last being more serious and required six weeks of radiation.

I too avoid having pictures taken of me. I have a very few that I actually like.
JK

@merpreb I think about the arthritis commercial stating "it takes energy to make energy". True and also laughable on some levels. I find myself picking and choosing how to use my time. Mostly I don't feel like doing anything and typically I don't do much.
Grandson is in pre-K for around 3 hours 5 days a week. I usually have him once or twice a week. He has reached the stage of mostly hanging out. Independent as a hog on ice he is!!
I come to the connect community and see 99+ comments I am overwhelmed. Do the best I can.
My neck has been giving me fits again. The rhizotomy is to last up to a year. I pretty much stay in my woman's cave and don't care to be sociable. I don't feel depressed-more of a generalized malaise.
Maybe I need to try and come hang out here more-sometimes logging on is even too much of a hurdle.
Not particularly excited about warmer weather. Uh, does sound like some depression is lurking. Hadn't even thought of that as I always have some level of depression.
Your input is appreciated and definitely shed some light.
How are things with you? I recall you were absent for a while.

@gingerw Even I am confused by my actions!!! I think about connecting with you and don't get past the thought. Just flat out dumb.

@parus I'll be here when you're ready!
Ginger

@parus- So good to hear from you! I think that you might have allowed yourself to become complacent and are very comfy there. I do this too and it's not a great place to be. Every time I've allowed myself to slip into this it gets harder and harder to get out of. That is why Connect is so great for me, and I've heard you say it too! It gets me out of myself and helping others helps in degrees that I can't count. I have to force myself to answer one question, do I want to live like this for the rest of my life? My answer is no. If something else doesn't kill me before my cancer I know that my killer is now living inside me. And it has the arrogance to think that it will beat me. It just might if I let it and to me that is suicide. I'm a crazy nosy person and I'm too damn stubborn to want to give in to it - I want to know everything and see everything and do everything that I can and help as many people that I can. I want to know if I have helped. I want to see if I've made a difference to just one person or more. I want to see my son get grayer than me and be able to kid him about it.
Force yourself to log in more! I know that GInger and I miss you! And I know how much you help people! I miss you because you have a great sense of humor and a lot of life experiences that I can relate to and others too. You have wonderful compassion and understanding of other people's struggles.
And as Ginger said, I'm here when you're ready, I hope that it's soon. You never have to say more than you want or reveal more than you have. All you have to do is come say hi! Hi @parus! How are you today? cyber hugs!!

@merpreb Yup, you nailed it. My attitude is anything but healthy at the present. Have gotten too comfortable in my complacency. Now to kick myself in the arse as you just did. Thanks for busting me.

@parus- I'm always here if you need me. I try and oblige as best as I can my friend. Feeling better today? Get out and walk. Smile at people. l tend to smile a lot and get a lot of smiles in return. That makes me feel so warm and happy, even if I don't know these strangers. Do you need anything else today? xxoo

Hi @parus,

It is good to hear from you again. Yes, we all get complacent at times. Forcing myself out of that attitude takes work and fortitude and sometimes I don't want to. However, when I consider the alternatives it doesn't look all that attractive either. Hang in there and let's encourage each other.

Sound like a plan?

@hopeful33250 That's where I'm at now staying home my black holes is creeping in I don't like this feeling