@jmel ...what is so difficult is not only the physical loss but all the secondary losses...the loss of our future, our security, our past, our identity, our plans...and on and on.....the sadness and loneliness is always there...every minute of everyday, but in the midst of it all, there are things that are true blessings in our lives...I know it's hard to see them sometimes, but for me it helps me to try to see the glass half full.....
I have moments of incredible grief and sadness...I get it out because I will explode if I don't...but I try not to stay there...I talk to him all the time..writing has really helped..it just puts all the sadness I'm feeling in a place, and then I put the pen down and move along.....this will be an ongoing process for as long as it takes...and even when we think we are OK...we may not be....and that's ok as well...