I’m so sorry the hospital counselor was so rude and unsupportive. Of course you’re emotional, I’d be concerned if you weren’t!! You can’t time stamp when your grief will be easier. You take all the time you need! I’m not going to tell you to get out more or read a book, that insults me somehow. What I will say is reach out to your family and friends. Perhaps make a scrapbook of all your happy memories. We’re all here for you!