@olliedog - hello, and welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. I can only imagine how hard it would be to see your long-time husband with Alzheimer's that seemed to be progressing fast. It makes a lot of sense that you would be grieving and feeling deep loss.

This is a really good discussion to be part of, and I want to encourage you to continue to talk here. Also, I wanted to suggest that you look into this discussion in our Connect Caregivers group on "Caring for Someone with Dementia/Alzheimer's" https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/caregiving-for-dementia-sufferers/.