@liz223 I am grateful that you started this new discussion about loss and grief, especially today. Holidays and celebrations can be especially tough when bereavement is recent and grief is fresh. You may find this article helpful:
- Grief in Times of Celebration: The Empty Spot http://www.virtualhospice.ca/en_US/Main+Site+Navigation/Home/Topics/Topics/Emotional+Health/Grief+in+Times+of+Celebration_+The+Empty+Spot.aspx

I applaud you for connecting with others here and with new friends at the retirement home. From the picture you posted, it looks like you and your husband like the outdoors. Were you hiking?