@benny987- I'm so sorry that things have gotten so out of hand for you. I can hear that you feel so badly and scared.. It sounds as if you have PTSD. This can be triggered by anything that you found traumatic. And it might not make sense to you. Stopping your medicines all at once will make you feel worse than you have been. I think that you need to go to the ER or call your doctor immediately and get some help. I know how the feeling of being disconnected and not functioning can be very scary. I was like this for a few years when I first had PTSD. But there is hope. I'm hope because I'm not like this anymore and I didn't think that I would be able to do anything, and just die. First off let's get you to the dr.'s or the ER and get you stabilized. Bring all of your meds with you. Will your parents drive you? If not call an ambulance. Please let me know how you made out.
I know that I have said this but just saying that you feel hopeless is the first step to becoming well again. I know, because that's one of the things that got me going. Telling someone. My heart is with you.