Changes? These seem small, yet add up to a strange feeling. I lost most of my muscle mass after an active life. My hands are not my hands anymore--there are no calluses or dirt under my nails, no cuts or splinters. I now have high blood pressure, which I did not have before. And I feel drugged all the time, not in a clear state of mind as I was before transplant. While I know many of these things are resolved with time, these obstacles are difficult now. I notice other small things every day, feelings I never had--things hard to describe or define. It has been difficult getting back to my usual daily schedule as well. Setting goals has also been a challenge, I think mostly due to drug side effect draining my energy and fogging my mind. I am blessed with a wonderful, caring family who sustain my efforts to recover and inspire me to be better.

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