Spiraling down but fighting to stay up.

Absolutely, Pearlbaby!👍 I work in the operating room so I see no natural light during my shift, which is hard. I'm thinking it might be a good idea to invest in a full spectrum light. Have you ever tried one?

Yes. I've had one from the Sunbox company for about 26 years. When I lived in KCMO winters were really hard on me. By February or March my blood pressure would be so low I could hardly lift my hands to put them on the keyboard. It took several years to find a doctor who knew I had SAD. He wrote me a prescription for a light box. I never did get the imsurance company to help pay for it but I think things have changed a lot. It saved my life.
I'd talk to your doctor and I suggest you go to the Sunbox company's website and read their Owner's Manual section. There's a lot of good info there including a diagnosis number for your doctor if s/he feels light therapy would help you.
Even if light therapy is not called for in your situation, trying to get outside at least during your lunch break may have benefits in just taking you out of your work environment so you can go back for the rest of your shift feeling a little more charged up.
I hope this helps you find a path to feeling better whether through light or another channel.

Hi there - glad that you have the courage to share and talk about "things" happening in your life!! Talking - in whatever form - is the best!!!! Get the "junk" .- negative toughts, beating your self up emotionaly, not caring about your physical wellbeing is just not gettig you to a happy place which you deserve.
Take it inch by inch - small but very important steps. Get oit of bed - look at the sky or the stars - enjoy that moment and try not to think about you. Make a wish - say it out loud - of what you would like. And release that wish up and out to the sky and to the universe. And breath! Send as many wishes as you want
Peace & happiness
Gloria

I'm not a parent, but I know that just making a commitment to yourself to go outside for a walk in nature really helps me tremendously !! The sun makes me feel so good and positive! My mood changes; as I realize that life is precious and I believe in myself! I'm convinced that you'll feel better if you distract yourself by venturing outside in Nature and taking advantage of the senses!
Good luck!

Thank you for the reminder that distractions may help and sun and nature make me happy and I have been inside too much.

Hi everyone! I first want to say that I think we are all fighters. Depression and anxiety is tricky and mean. I, too feel that I am spiraling down sometimes. I have suffered from Bipolar depression and anxiety for about 19 years, and it seems to be something that any amount of medicine or therapy can help. I take 5 different psychotropic drugs, CBD oil, a B Complex, and Ashwaganda...I wonder every day what might be helping and what might be making me worse. I struggle to bathe every day, and I do things like abuse caffeine and nicotinw. What are some of the things the help others in this thread?

Marisa - I have been where you are several times. Helpful things beyond medication and therapy: #1 is exercise...hard to do when you don't feel like moving but it is the #1 helpful item in my opinion and experience managing depression for 20+ years. You can start slowly, even 5 minutes a day and work your way up. Some studies suggest exercise can be as beneficial, or even more beneficial, than medication. See a doctor first if you have not exercised in a while. A personal trainer can be helpful too. Good luck and keep the faith.

I know very much how you feel! I have been agoraphobic for some time from tapering a benzodiazepine. And in bed. I decided to start an antidepressant today which I believe will help me. It’s so hard when you’re down to think better things are ahead but I hope for all of us that struggle from anxiety and depression for whatever reason they are. If I cannot seem to do one day at a time (even that’s too much sometimes) I try one hour at a time. I’ve lost a ton of weight too and struggling to find pleasure but as my screen name expresses I have hope somewhere inside me. :).

I just can’t get up to make a cup of coffee let alone get up and walk. Shouldn’t say can’t but I feel paralyzed with even the thought of getting up and doing much at all due to high anxiety and depression.
My 47 yr old daughter passed from ovarian cancer 2 years ago followed by a string of other very negative incidents that have me in the pits.
This is not the active, happy, motivated me I want back.
Is Omega brite same as Fish oil?
Thanks much,
Rascal

@rascal1 Omega Bright is fish oil. Things have been rough for you. Try to focus on you and taking care of you. Not easy when you are down. Try to at least drink some water as dehydration can make things worse. Sorry to lecture but keeping hydrated is a start. Start slowly. You can do this. People here do care.