Wow, bless you-you’ve got so much going on! I was wondering do you have to live with your family? It doesn’t seem to be very healthy for you. It’s so disheartening when we have this idea of how a family is supposed to be and it just doesn’t turn out that way. We can’t change others just ourselves. For me that change meant learning to accept things as they are. Do you have a therapist? I feel you’d greatly benefit from one. Of course finding one that fits isn’t easy either.