Hi merryone! One of the hardest things for me to deal with was the first time I visited my mom and dad and my mother didn't know me. She thought my husband and I were total strangers. About a year before this happened we moved them 2 hours away from us so unfortunately, visits became fewer than normal. After being their caretakers for years...mom no longer knew me. I still had 1 1/2 years of visiting her and enjoying her company. Accepting her for who she was. May God be with you through your struggles. Start with baby steps...or jump right in getting to be "you" again. It is a very tough road but God is there to help. Blessings to you.