Oh Barbara, sometimes it is so hard to be brave! Sorry I took so long to reply, been laid up but now back to the usual. Haven't looked through the posts yet, hope you are coping OK with your journey. What a courageous person you are! Your experience with crossing the bridge is a great parable. Just tie another knot and hang on. I was not quite as successful facing a scary water problem when I was also 8; my father wanted me to cross a lake with him in a canoe! Was so terrified I almost passed out cold. No bravado there. Well, that's water under the bridge! Let me check my posts later, and Barbara, you really give me hope for the future! Peggy