Days are ok, I'm exercising 2-3 hours. Appetite is alright. Nights and early mornings are dreadful. Early morning I'll have Intense panic attacks, and if I close my eyes to go back to sleep I immediately feel a sense of death and dread and have violent dry heaving. Its painful, to say the least. The past few nights were ok, fell asleep normally but last night I had insomnia. Couldn't close my eyes without the aforementioned panic attacks and vomiting. So I just stayed up watching TV. I eventually slept for maybe 2-3 hours, then woke up sick again. Took a low dose of klonopin, it warded off the vomiting but everything else remained. Shook it off, went for a walk at the park to clear my head. Exercise really helps the panic attacks and vomiting spells.

This is really messing up my life. I can't go back on it either, this has been more than a month since i went clean. Last time I fell back, I kept having to increase the dose to avoid withdrawal and with it came the old side effects that I've been away from for so long.

I'm also taking paxil, was on 10 for years but recently increase to 15, planning to increase to 20 after two weeks.