Thoughout my life I would have flashbacks to an traumatic event that happened to me when I was 14. Throughout the years I was interacting with people who were part of my family circle. Whenever I had a anxiety attack or panic attack it had to indirectly/and directly impact my life by my reacting to that event that happened so many years ago. Over time I dealt with those family members and with those issues by utlitizng all the coping skills I could muster. Over the years I would have flashbacks that for some reason I blamed on anxiety. This past December I had alot of events occur at the same time........but one in particular that sent me through a loop. I experienced a manic episode which the dr put down as bipolar. They perscribed Seroquel without really talking to me prior. They were not listening to me when I told them about the event in my life that has been the primary issue in my life. They loaded me up so much on Seroquel I couldn't tell you what town I was in, what day it was............ and he did not tell me any of the really serious side effects. Once I got home.... I was literally a zombie............ as I became adjusted to the drug my mind cleared a bit. I began reading all the side effects..... And I was literally appalled..........that I allowed this dr to perscribe this to me based on his diagnosis of Bi-Polar. His diagnosis consisted of me answering a survey sheet. I questioned him on this...... How do YOU know I have Bipolar....... he said you do and pulled out the survey sheet. Mainly what pegged me as Bipolar was the Manic problem I had in December. I hated the side effects of this drug....and began to insist that I be tapered down. As we were talking and I was trying to get across to him my PSTD issue...he looked at me and said.... wow....... I really do think you have this...... Are you kidding me!! His answer was to put me on another drug. VRAYLAR. This drug was not covered by my insurance as it is a brand name with no generic product available. It would cost me $600.00 a month. Oh but he gave me two months free try............. okay....so I get dependent on this drug.....and after two months....what......... I felt like he was more of a drug dealer than a dr. All I know is I have NEVER been this miserable in my life, pains in my legs, 24 pounds gained, dry mouth at night where I wake up unable to breath, my blood pressue up, my sugar level on the way up. So When I speak of how bad this drug is.........that does not mean it is that way for all. But for me...... this has been a horrendous experience.