Hello @sapphira

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your sister and the traumatic events surrounding her death. It is hard to even imagine how you must feel. I would encourage you to join the Mayo Connect discussion on Loss and Grief. You can find the discussions at this link, https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/loss-grief/.

I think you will find some very compassionate Members in this group you will be encouraging and helpful to you as you seek to live your life without your dear sister.