Being the care giver to the one who is your soul mate, husband, father, son, mother is loving that person to the max. As a caregiver to my husband for 12 years and taking care of the household and doing a part time job but always keeping in mind that he was my lover and I was giving of myself to him in the most giving way by taking care of him and all of his personal needs. That giving is the best gift you can give to your loved one. Yes, your relationship to that person will change over time but one always keeps giving and giving and giving because that is what we signed up for when we committed our love to that person.. You will have challenging days and want to give up but if you can put yourself in the other person's place, you can bare anything. My husband always said he would do the care giving for me if he could. I experienced grief along the way as I considered the future and was scared by what will happen in the future to us if
he didn't get better. Also, I tried to get as much education about multiple myeloma that I could and what to expect as we went down the
road with meds and tests. In the end, my education really help me understand what was happening to him and how I could get the help
he needed from the medical community. We that have given to our mates the ultimate gift understand what all those out there that are
still doing the best they can deserve our support and care.

Please know there many of us here on this site that understand and care about you.
ozys