My deepest sympathies on the loss of your Grandma. It sounds like she was a gem. Although you feel great pain now, as you should, your memories with be a testament of the love she had for you and you her. That love will be your memory and how delicious that will be!! How lucky you have been to have had such love and protection. As time goes on and your memories become stronger than your pain you will be able to still feel the warmth of her love. How lucky you have been to have experience the joy that she brought to your life, and although she didn't want to leave you, she knew that she could. All that love will be your strength in the days and weeks to come. Merry