Unfortunately, I think once you've been told you have cancer and go through all of this...........it's very hard not to worry about the original cancer coming back or another cancer popping up. It just stays with you. If my husband is any example....he was given up for dead 9 months ago from his cancer (Stage 4......unknown primary....in other words, no idea of what the cancer is) and yesterday the oncologist said perhaps years to live, something to be watched and managed and once again some kind of treatment options on the table. I try to think of my cancer as a chronic disease that I have to watch all the time but if I stay on it, perhaps something treatable for long into the future. No fun for sure but manageable. There are people on this site who were diagnosed and treated 10 years ago when there were even less options. It's good to have a forum to put our fears out there and share and this site and all the brave, strong people on here have been a lifesaver for me.