Hello everybody, glad to be back here. I was gone so long because of the intense withdrawal process from my antidepressant. Wow it's sucks big time. But its getting better. And it was the right thing to do for me to stop my antidepressant.
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Ok, truthfully, I miss my brain. All my brain circuits have to rewire themselves to work without the drug. And I have multiple sclerosis so my neurons keep dying and a thought has to be rerouted. I have to tell you sometimes its like a pinball going crazy to get a thought completed. Its funny but its not.
Remember, I like to be playful cuz stories like I reread here tonight are just plain awful. And many more words come to mine but I am too much of a lady to say them...most of the time, winking.
So I play to balance the dreadful pain that comes with these stories, only they are not stories, these were our lives.
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Ok I was so surprised to find 3 pages of comments here. WHAT?????
So I sat back and reread the pages and the stories we all shared and thought about how we are using it.
In my humble opinion, we are in the introductory stage...hi, bright wings here. This happened to me, Oh sorry that happened. This happened to me. Next person same. I am NOT CRITIZING only observing and sharing those observations.
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Now who am I to be able to say these things and you guys care to listen?
R.N. 21 years, alcoholism treatment center 6 years. Years of inpatient psych units AND MY 32 year RECOVERY and integrating more than 250 personalities.
Ok so why all the words Susie?
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Question for all.
What do you think if we put a focus of one topic up for all to think about and after a period of time we come together and share about it.
We could choose topics and then either work things out here and respond to each other when someone pops in or all do it together the same day.
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I was in therapy from 1986 to 2011 with a 10 year break somewhere. It helped...but the groups, gosh.
I learned to be comfortable with myself and with others. Groups are like the difference between using a diving board to enter the water or diving in the pool from the side. I grew more from the groups, its a different kind of focus than 1/1.
I learned how to care for others and learned it was ok to allow someone to care for me. I learned it was ok for me to be me. And that I could be safe around others.
Now we would still be folks helping each other.
Frankly, as I spent almost 2 hours writing this, I had to ask myself, why Susie...what will you get out of this?????
The truth is, I need it. I do not have any place in the world to go to And tell how I am really feeling and be understood and cared about. No one gets me if I am real. I know you all will "get" me and allow me to be weak once in a while. That's why all the words.
I give and give and give and give in my real life. Sometimes it would be nice to receive. But that is just me.

This is our group.
How do we want to use it?

Moderators, can you call everyone in here? I am too tired. Smiling at you all, bright wings