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Dissociative identity disorders (DID) from vicious childhood abuse
Mental Health | Last Active: Jun 3, 2021 | Replies (64)Comment receiving replies
@Dear Parus, you have a quick mind (you have to be quick to avoid your abusers) . You know what is best for you. I found that writing it, putting it down on paper and reading it when I felt it would be good for me. It does help me and I have heard from others that it does help them. You are smart enough to know what is best for you. Take care, Peacg
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@this certainly sounds like my family. Hiting, screaming awful thind for no reason. The horror of it. My entire family mother, father, 3 sisters al together or alon. Yes there are nightmares, but slowly they are further apart and become somewhat less with the agonies. It is easy to say this and much harder to accept. But give it time, much much time. I made it to 80 and I realize that they are the monsters and they love what they do. They are what they are and they do not change. But perhaps one of the many many look back and realize what was done by them and somehow they can and do change. Believing in yourself and staying away from them is one way to go. It is up to you. It is lonely but less anxieties. Love Peach
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@peach414144 Back to you on the quick mind. I do still write poetry as I can write feelings/memories in a disguised way. I would never want family to know the ugly things. The poetry in an array of styles/words still exists. I was in no way saying writing in a journal is not a healthy and helping thing. I just would not be comfortable with publishing. Some of my journals were far too graphic. I always appreciate your input. I still have terrible nightmares of the abuse that lasted for many years. The thing that oft hurts me the most is how one of my sisters joined in with the abuse of the mother. Their hitting, throwing things at me,name calling and laughing the whole time they were doing so still scream into my sleep as well as the sexual abuse. TMI perhaps. You take care too Peach. Gotta be tough and determined to keep on keeping on. I am sad for what many have endured. My mind cannot grasp this type of cruelty of others nor would I want my mind to be able to. I know in ways I am way too sensitive. The body heals and the mind is endeavoring to do some healing. I was diagnosed 27 years ago. I functioned well and in many ways better prior to integrating although at times I still am fragmented when the world becomes too big and cruel. Easier to share a bit with someone who "gets it". If I could go back and stay there I would. Long story. Shows how determined I (we) we are to continue on. So many believe being "many" equals crazy. The things that happened were sick and crazy. How they could have found pleasure in such things...Enough about perverts of the past.