If anyone reads it and replies, that helps me too.

It is impossible for anyone to understand how your body changes from taking that poison unless they themselves had to take it. It is unfortunate that we did not research previous to taking the medicine and trusting a doctor to do right by us. I live in a state of disbelief thst they were paid big bucks the more medicine they prescribed. As i said previously my obit has been written with both their names in it, so at least I can do something to warn others about how really corrupt doctor's can be. They both should be jailed for what they did. I am sorry you are so depressed. I have two wonderful sons, a dog who follows me around and a spoiled fat cat. I try and stay happy, eben though I feel like shit. I want my children to have good memories of me because I know I probably won't be around too much longer. Try to go somewhere peaceful, like to a lake or the ocean, that always helped me in the past. Or, escape with a good book, that is something I do all the time. Try and stay strong. There are good doctor's and people that ❤ care.

I too suffer from such bad depression, my immune system was fried so now i have a lifetime of nasty infusions, i was a RN n now can barely survive, im so so sorry that u r going thru such a hard time also. pm me anytime pls xo